Being happy for the people that have left me was one of the most difficult things I've ever had to do. When someone you love no longer loves you, you have to let them go. But in addition, you have to be able to talk to, see, and think about that person without feeling bitter. Honestly, I think time apart is the best way to accomplish this. I have literally had to remove myself from all situations in which I could encounter these people. Being apart has made me realize that I do not regret anything I did or felt for anyone, but that I do not need them to live a happy life. New people are just around the corner and if I want to find love in them, I must let go of the love I felt for the others. The past has passed and I have moved on just as much as my old loves have, even though I have not found someone special to move on with. I think this is the result of keeping feelings of hope in ended relationships when I should have just moved forward with all of my love into the next object of my affection.
This realization makes me feel more lovable, even though I definitely feel vulnerable since all of my love is back in me and not relying on others. I have come to understand that if I want to be happy, I need to do it for myself, not to make others jealous so they want me back. Now that I am happy with myself and I know how much love I have to give, I need to be patient and wait for God to bring somebody who is worthy of all of my love into my life.
