Finding beauty is one of the easiest things, but it can be challenging to remember to look for it. Spending time making my space beautiful, working out and maintaining my body to feel beautiful, surrounding myself with people who are beautiful from the inside out, and rewarding myself with beautiful things are ingredients that make a life beautiful. We all do these things subconsciously; we brush our teeth when we wake up and decorate our rooms with things that remind us of the things that make us happy because our life is better this way. There come moments when I just think, I need to make my life better and I start by cleaning up everything in my life and enjoying the beauty that is in everything that surrounds me. I can talk to whoever I want at the touch of a button, be inspired in a click, and find love in listening to certain songs over and over. This freedom is so overwhelming at times because I can lose track of my goals. The trick is to figure out what I have to do each day, organize my time so I can do everything I need to, and let go of my worries when I know I don't need to have them.
Finding security in decisions is a practiced skill. I must have faith in my past and future self to trust that I will be woken up by when I need to be up and that everything essential will be taken care of. With this trust, I can focus on what needs to be done in the present moment. Some days, the things that need to be done include seemingly unimportant passtimes in my ultimate goals of life. Finding new music, keeping up with my Google Reader, and flipping through pages on my Nook may seem like a waste of time when I have "more important" things to do, like write an essay and edit poems. I know myself, though, and I know that in the grand scheme of my life, I am doing what I need to do. I am in school, attending class, fulfilling assignments, and working on the side. How I pass each hour in the day is up to me. I have arranged it the way I like so that my free hours are at times when I can really feel free. Having free time requires that I make it free, just as I can easily make it full. I love when I can find the perfect balance between feeling exhausted from being so busy and feeling too bored from not having enough plans. Planning life is very important; but because plans can change from day to day and hour to hour, it is important to recognize when I am doing what I want and when I have gotten off track.
I have made my plan for life a beautiful one. I have dreams of beautiful apartments in New York City, homes in the country, and fabulous people to spend time in all these different places with. I want my life with my family to be lovely, and I hope to make a successful business doing what I love. My friends have been selected, my journey planned, and I am happy.
