At several times in my life, I felt that I was losing things that I thought belonged to me. I thought that because I had obtained what I wanted temporarily, the presence of this thing would keep manifesting itself in my life and continue to make me happy. After losing things that I thought I would have forever, however, I realized that I have to keep working to gain things but also work to keep the things I have already gained. It is essential to progress in life in order to obtain and keep everything that makes me happy in my life and to ensure that everything I have in my life continues to make me happy.
I never want to feel like I have everything because that is the point
when I will stop focusing on my "keeps" and begin noticing everything I
lose. Although I lose things all the time, working towards new gains
helps me move on and stop missing the stuff that gets lost. To
me, life is about winning some of the things you want and trying not to
lose the things you have already worked to win.
Gaining both vulnerability and confidence was a huge step in my life because I allowed my mind to search myself for things I have lost and to discover new things about myself. I became okay with opening up into my thoughts and memories, even the darkest ones that I had tried to hide from my mind for years, because I was confident that I could use the things I found buried deep within my heart to help fix whatever it was that kept leading me to lose things that were important to me. It was not until I noticed that I kept losing things, however, that I let myself be vulnerable to change and become confident in the person that had grown out of every thought, feeling, and experience I revisited. I gained a surer sense of the things I wanted to have in my life and I decided what I needed to help me make my place in the world a good one.
Although my dreams often seem unreachable
under current circumstances, I make them that way so that I will never feel like I have
gained everything. If a day comes when all of my personal dreams have come
true or I cannot seem to create a better dream for myself at that moment, I will make
my dream to help others reach their dreams. There will
always be people with goals they have not reached, so there is always something
to work toward in this world.
