Tragedy

It shakes up our feelings when things seem perfect one night before you go to sleep and when you wake up, the world has been changed by a horrific tragedy of mankind.  We are all aware of national tragedies, thanks to the dominance of social and news media combining to make a sphere in which most people in our community participate.  Knowledge is power, but hearing about real devastation that is going on in the world can  make me want to completely give up control and hide, like evil wants us to do.  But during times when we have all just witnessed the tragedy of evil taking over man, it is heart wrenching.  I can truly imagine being in the midst of high-death tragedies myself, due to my close proximity to several tragedies in the past.  When a tragedy occurs, it is important to face it immediately and reevaluate the things that we all choose to live for.  Living to be happy and to love others is a common goal shared by the masses.  Although few, there are people out in this world who live to kill.  It is incomprehensible to people like me and you, but when they show themselves by carrying out their plots of killing the masses, we must not fear these creatures.  Instead, we must contain them and ensure that our generation does not let such people go unnoticed for the future generations that follow.  We must learn from history, and today is another moment in history that we must face immediately and learn from in order to prevent other innocent people from falling victim to those who have a mistaken view of life and their purpose on this earth.

May those twelve killed in the Aurora, Colorado movie theater during the Dark Knight Rises movie premier on this day, Friday, July 20, 2012, rest in peace and may the families of the victims continue to live in peace and happiness while never forgetting the loved ones they lost on this day.


God bless.

"Because he's the hero Gotham deserves, but not the one it needs right now. So, we'll hunt him, because he can take it. Because he's not our hero. He's a silent guardian. A watchful protector. A Dark Knight."

Motivate with Dreams

The dream each of us has for ourselves is incredibly important, for that dream is what shapes our presents.  While it is important to enjoy the dream we are currently living, we must not lose sight of our ultimate purpose.  It is what leads us when we are lost and what motivates us to get up and live each day to its fullest.  In order to reach a dream, we must set smaller goals.  Accomplishing each small goal brings feelings of achievement which make us feel successful and happy because we are one step closer to our dream.  Dreading any step that brings us closer toward living our dreams is like denying that there will be hardships along the path of life.  We can still remain happy people through these hardships as long as we remember that they are necessary in order to get to a better place in our lives.  Most importantly, never give up on a dream because it seems too big.  Anything can happen to anyone who wants it and works to reach it.  Whether shooting to go to the moon or aiming to understand basic human connections, all of us have dreams that we can make happen so long as we create the journey that will get us there.

~sweet dreams~

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Following Passion

Passion is one of those abstract concepts that we learn about as children but don't truly know until we get older.  There are so many things I am passionate about and I want to be sure never to lose any of this passion.  Yes, one day I will have to choose one to focus on and pursue in order to make a living, but it is important to keep everything I am passionate about in my life.  From eclectic coffee mugs to art and music to reading, writing, or even long walks in a beautiful place, there are so many things in this world that fill me with passion.  Blogging has become a passion because my blog is a place where I can release my feelings to the world, without anyone having to see unless they happen to find me.  I love sharing the things I have learned through my experience and I hope that one day people find me when in an abstract place of not knowing what to do.  I even go back and read my posts when I am in need of some inspiration.  Living happily seems to be everybody's goal and yet so many people find it so difficult.  I was like this for so long but have come through and found what I want in this life.  People, places, and activities that I love have come into my life either by chance or by choice, but the ones I love are still here.  I want to keep following these passions as long as I live, for they are what give meaning to my legacy and happiness to my life.

Be Love to Find It

Sometimes I feel like I am going on a mission, setting out to find love.  The actual realization of love, however, manifests itself when I am not thinking about finding love but am, in fact, showing love myself.  Love is what I am, it's what made me, and it's what will bring meaning to my life.  Every experience I have and every person I encounter is the result of the decisions I've made in the past and the goals I have for the future.  For example, if I have recently given a part of me to someone else and I continue to have the goal of giving, I will unexpectedly receive things from others that make me happier.  In order to receive, however, I must understand the feeling of giving so that I can genuinely respond to everything I receive.  Giving itself is a happy experience, so essentially, having a goal of happiness is manifested by the act and value of giving out of a place of happiness.  I like to constantly remind myself of the love and happiness I want so that I remember to show love and give to others first.

Closure before a New Chapter

As I lay down in my bed tonight, I get a rush of emotion, memories bursting through my mind.  This is the last night I am sleeping in my current apartment and, my, what a crazy year in this room it has been.  I have gone through the worst times of my life, but I got through them and turned into a better person.  I started here in a horrible place and let myself get more miserable.  I have cried harder than I have in years in this bed and if this ceiling could talk, my would it have some ridiculous stories.  It is impossible to forget these things...they were the beginning of my twenties and I am thankful for everything I have learned in this spot.

Goodnight&& sweet dreams...

Changes

Oftentimes, I find that changing my permanent location puts me into a completely different state of mind.  This can be a very good thing when I am leaving behind a place that brings negative memories to mind.  The state of bliss I am in from being in my new place lingers and I feel like a new person even when I go back to the place of negativity.  I love the hope that I have for the future and the unknown memories that I am certain to experience.  There will be happiness, love, and friendship in a new place that never existed where I was.  Moving is a new beginning in every part of my life and it reminds me of the me that is living for a purpose.  Everything happens to get me to the next part of the plan, so I look forward to what is in store for me!

Knowing and Loving the things that make up Me

Today I did my own thing.  I didn't make any plans with friends and I didn't follow a schedule.  I was spontaneous in doing the things I felt like doing and I feel satisfied with everything I did.  The food I made was delicious, the book I read was fabulous and has been on my list for a while, and the chores I accomplished were necessary so I was happy to do them.  I know I am going to have a busy couple of weeks coming up, and today, I feel like I got in tune with myself.  I do what I want to do in order to make my life better.  It is important to know what needs to be done and to be aware that I am accomplishing the necessary things.  It is also important to keep time open so I can express my freedom and instincts.  Eventually, my instincts are to do what needs to be done; however, on a Saturday like today, I followed my instincts and ended up reading Truman Capote's "Breakfast at Tiffany's" on the couch until 11 pm.  This is the person I am and the person I want to be sometimes.  I love that I know this about myself and am not ashamed of wanting to spend a Saturday night reading.  I would love to have company during times like this, but for now, I can be happy with myself.

love Lost can be Found again

Being happy for the people that have left me was one of the most difficult things I've ever had to do.  When someone you love no longer loves you, you have to let them go.  But in addition, you have to be able to talk to, see, and think about that person without feeling bitter.  Honestly, I think time apart is the best way to accomplish this.  I have literally had to remove myself from all situations in which I could encounter these people.  Being apart has made me realize that I do not regret anything I did or felt for anyone, but that I do not need them to live a happy life.  New people are just around the corner and if I want to find love in them, I must let go of the love I felt for the others.  The past has passed and I have moved on just as much as my old loves have, even though I have not found someone special to move on with.  I think this is the result of keeping feelings of hope in ended relationships when I should have just moved forward with all of my love into the next object of my affection.

This realization makes me feel more lovable, even though I definitely feel vulnerable since all of my love is back in me and not relying on others.  I have come to understand that if I want to be happy, I need to do it for myself, not to make others jealous so they want me back.  Now that I am happy with myself and I know how much love I have to give, I need to be patient and wait for God to bring somebody who is worthy of all of my love into my life.

This is what my life is about.

Finding beauty is one of the easiest things, but it can be challenging to remember to look for it.  Spending time making my space beautiful, working out and maintaining my body to feel beautiful, surrounding myself with people who are beautiful from the inside out, and rewarding myself with beautiful things are ingredients that make a life beautiful.  We all do these things subconsciously; we brush our teeth when we wake up and decorate our rooms with things that remind us of the things that make us happy because our life is better this way.  There come moments when I just think, I need to make my life better and I start by cleaning up everything in my life and enjoying the beauty that is in everything that surrounds me.  I can talk to whoever I want at the touch of a button, be inspired in a click, and find love in listening to certain songs over and over.  This freedom is so overwhelming at times because I can lose track of my goals.  The trick is to figure out what I have to do each day, organize my time so I can do everything I need to, and let go of my worries when I know I don't need to have them.

Finding security in decisions is a practiced skill.  I must have faith in my past and future self to trust that I will be woken up by when I need to be up and that everything essential will be taken care of.  With this trust, I can focus on what needs to be done in the present moment.  Some days, the things that need to be done include seemingly unimportant passtimes in my ultimate goals of life.  Finding new music, keeping up with my Google Reader, and flipping through pages on my Nook may seem like a waste of time when I have "more important" things to do, like write an essay and edit poems.  I know myself, though, and I know that in the grand scheme of my life, I am doing what I need to do.  I am in school, attending class, fulfilling assignments, and working on the side.  How I pass each hour in the day is up to me.  I have arranged it the way I like so that my free hours are at times when I can really feel free.  Having free time requires that I make it free, just as I can easily make it full.  I love when I can find the perfect balance between feeling exhausted from being so busy and feeling too bored from not having enough plans.  Planning life is very important; but because plans can change from day to day and hour to hour, it is important to recognize when I am doing what I want and when I have gotten off track.

I have made my plan for life a beautiful one.  I have dreams of beautiful apartments in New York City, homes in the country, and fabulous people to spend time in all these different places with.  I want my life with my family to be lovely, and I hope to make a successful business doing what I love.  My friends have been selected, my journey planned, and I am happy.